ok so im thinkin about gettin a job. Just something on campus. Cause at least that way ill be meeting people but at the same time ill be able to study and make money. And even tho making money isnt one of my biggest priorities right now, it would really help for next summers apt, if I end up staying. So i guess its money for apt or for new make up...What else would i put it torwards, ya thats wat i thought. I dont know whats going on with nathan right now. Theres just so much going on right now that it makes that hard to think clearly. I dont know if breakin up is the best idea but i guess ill find out. i hate the feeling that im throwing away 3 years that really have been good. I just dont want to stay in something that is goin in two different directions. Its just something for me to think about. i wish he understood where im at right now and where i need for him to be. i think we lost watever it is that we had. i hate this.